birthday

Been thinking about this since yesterday, i have been feeling well (aside from the drawing stuff, that shit has always been like that lol) and really amazing lately, so i dunno if i really need to go for 2 full weeks without using Twitter or Discord, on the other hand however, if i don't complete my break it might show how weak and dependant i am on those platforms, and i wanna be able to live without social media for a bit. Idk what to do, the original planned date for me to stop break was Feb 10th, but i might short it down to the 7th since that would still technically a bit over 2 weeks, Let me know what y'all think, maybe this is a bad idea i dunno lmfao

This sucks, i hate it. I'll just continue this stupid act for a bit until all my creative drives are finally gone. This was the worst decision i've made in my life, i should have kept this as a hobby because i know i'll never accomplish anything like everyone else does. I don't care anymore about what people tell me that much, i know my truth and that is that i'll never be good at anything. I know people are tired of listening to me whine too so i'll probably shut up after a while.

If you're gonna go check my works or anything else i know you'll just be doing out of pity, don't, i already have enough pity for myself and i don't want you to like my stuff just because boo hoo i'm a sad whiny bitch. Shouldn't have joined this site because i will never contribute anything to it, i'm just a droplet of dirty water in a septic tank, it never gets clean until it's too late. Humans are fucking stupid for wanting to follow their dreams, and i'm only human.

I love my life so much :)

I no longer find joy in this no matter how hard i try, i hate every single second of my existence when i draw, nothing ever comes out like i want it to, it's never perfect and it's never good. I'm so tired of feeling disappointed every single goddamn time. I'm literally on break rn, i should feel good, but i have to draw something for a project and it's utterly horrible, i despise it. I despise my hands for not doing what they should and my brain for giving me a creative drive when it's clear i don't want jackshit with this hobby anymore. God how i regret everything in my life, fuck this stupid ass hobby and fuck me.

I wish i could just do all the stuff in my bucket list faster so i could quit sooner, i'm getting sick of this.

Ye i know i'm late but i wanted to come back when i had something to show here, sadly i can't post my most recent doodle requests since i'm not a supporter and can't post over 10 pics, so ig i'll have to link y'all the thread of them here

Thread of Doodles

If i get supporter i'll post them, but for now i'll wait to post the next project i finish, thanks everyone and i hope you had an amazing new years party or that you had fun celebrating whatever you wanted, i'm not one to judge, can't wait to post more stuff in the future!

So i've been watching the Ninjamuffin shit on Twitter occur, it was honestly overblown a bit with the aged up shit he liked, that stuff is morally gray. BUT the fact he liked not only a pic of Miku that made her look like a loli, but Hat KID porn, incest porn and some self harm shit (i genuinely remember him favoriting a pic of Sarvente harming herself and thanks to recent events i suspect it wasn't because it was well drawn) is fucking disgusting, genuinely. And guess what he responded with just today? A Pickle Rick meme. Yeah. That's his proper response for liking that gross shit.

Oh and don't get me started on the NG people that replied to him in a non serious manner as if he did nothing wrong. Fucking Jeff and MindChamber, i thought you guys were genuinely better than that, but seeing as how Jeff was joking about the Palestine genocide with NinjaMuffin maybe i'm not as surprised with him.

Newgrounds is an inspiration to me, so many good stuff came from it that inspired me, so many artists here both old and recent still help me to this day, and i adore the people in the community (aside from the obvious ones), and to see how the bigger members of it act like fucking teenagers over serious stuff is honestly disappointing, a lot. You guys can call me a weak bitch but i grew up with most of the content here, i know what y'all did and all the edgy stuff that was here, i laughed at shit like that too i admit, when i was like 10. You need to realize that times change, you can't be 14 or 17 anymore, you gotta grow a pair and acknowledge that the shit you did was wrong and that not everything will age as well as you think it will, you can't just make jokes about genocides, racism and sex like it's 2008.

Seeing this dumbass motherfucker known as Ninjamuffin still act like a 13 year old edgelord is infuriating, the dude is near his 30s i bet as seen by his looks, and yet still tweets and talks like the typical teenage Twitter user, except more of an asshole and with "edge". Jackass genuinely doesn't take anything serious because he think he's inmune from consequences for being a popular NG user and for making a game that brought back to life the site for a bit, that's not how shit works in the real world, you can't assume everything will go your way just because an echochamber of randos says you're not doing wrong stuff because they are contrarians and are adults who think doing upsetting stuff still makes em funny. You think it's so cool rawr xd to respond to accusations of being a pedo with a fucking meme? You think it's epic awesome zomg? Well guess what, Twitter is not Newgrounds, no one acts like how they acted back in the Newgrounds days, if you aren't willing to change as a person and evolve your morals as time goes on then fucking stay off the internet, you pathetic scumbag.

Just wait until the rest of the Funkin' Team do the same shit, because i doubt they are gonna throw him under the bus cuz "NG people gotta stick together!!!1!11". Well that philosophy won't work all the time, that's the reason why Shadman got away with most of his disgusting shenanigans, if you really think you gotta suck everyone's cocks because they are from the same website as you you are nothing but a LOSER. People can do wrong shit, and if your only reason to stick with them is cuz of a site you guys love then gtfo, you keep defending awful mofos for this same reason, you did it with the aforementioned Shad, you are doing it with Ninja rn. And for what? "Community"? Do you really want disgusting creeps in your beloved community? Stop being a dickrider and realize not everything will be perfect and out the people who deserve it, no matter how much you are attached to them no matter how much of an influence they were or what site they use.

To Jeff and MindChamber: You guys are in your 30s or nearing your 40s, what the fuck is wrong with you. Did you guys get stuck in your highschool years? Because it seems like you are still as inmature as you were back then, as dumb TEENAGERS. You are old fucks, deal with it, you won't get back the joy you had from making cock jokes or racist remarks on old ass forums. I don't care how popular you guys are or the impact you had here, you have an audience, you have to realize at some point in your life that you have to change with the times and be a good person instead of being a piece of shit to look cool and be "funny", you think the people who are against you are sensitive snowballs but the moment you get criticized or you are shown something you disagree with you lose your fucking marbles. You are as bad as the people you claim "just don't get my humor!! I'm from the old NG days!!1111". There's a reason NO ONE acts like people did back in the "golden days" ok. We grew tf up, and if you guys aren't willing to do the same then i can't say anymore because it's clear you don't want to listen, for your heads are far up your rectums.

Friday Night Funkin' and Newgrounds mean a lot to me. I grew up with Newgrounds, but didn't have the balls to get an account until FNF came out. You should understand how hard this situation has been for me and any other reasonable NG user. I have the right to call out and criticize these guys no matter how small i am and how big they are in NG history, even if that isn't clear because the mods just locked a thread discussing this recently which means they want this shit silenced.

I don't care anymore if this shit gets me banned or temporarily suspended from the site, i need to speak out my feelings on how utterly disappointed i am on everyone involved in here. I would say you guys could be better, but at this point i HEAVILY doubt that with how you act. I will keep using Newgrounds, i still love some parts of this site, but what happened these past few days made me realize that not everything here is sunshine and rainbows, shit needs to get fixed, and it better be if they don't want this place to shutdown in the next 5 years or so.

Good morning, afternoon or night to whoever is reading this, if it stays up. And thank you for doing so as well.

want to give up on everything and quit your hobbies because you fucking suck at everything and you will never be as good as everyone else who is progressing faster than you and do amazing shit while you just do stupid ass mediocre content but you can't because you need to finish your drawing bucket list so you don't have as many regrets when you quit???

God i want this to end, i don't want to do art anymore

You bet your ass i'm gonna play these two so much, even if i have beaten the OG Alien Hominid like 40 times, they are just so PEAK

Happy Halloween to everyone, hope you all enjoy your day and check out all the cool shit people made for the day... If only i had done something for today. I had a big project for the Halloween Spooktacular and the deathink event but i couldn't finish it in time because i'm a lazy piece of shit and i'm never able to finish anything in time. I really wanted to have this done for today but i'm a failure, i wasn't born to be an artist, i don't have the talent, i don't have the skills and i don't have the responsibility either. I wish i could have been a good and skilled person for you guys, and for me, but i can't, no matter how hard i've tried. I'm sorry, Halloween is ruined.

Enjoy stuff from actually talented fellas and support them, there's nothing here for you. Happy Halloween!!!

I was listening to FNAF songs because you know why and i got this shit recommended to me, i assume it's because i also listen to FNF music but still what

Who tf is sick enough to make FNF songs about REAL LIFE CRIMES. I'm not gonna click on it but i saw the preview clip that you get when you hover over it and it's definitely a song, the title gives it away as an FNF mod too.

People keep complaining about the stupid ass Sonic.exe mods and Pibby ones or the GF designs in certain mods when shit like this exists and is more harmful than those. I gotta wonder who's the edgelord kid who still lives in 2002 and thinks this shit's hilarious bro